December 11

"The Nativity at Night" by Geertgen tot Sint Jans, about 1490

Sweet Little Jesus Boy

Words and Music by Robert MacGimsey (1898–1979), 1932

and performed by the incomparable Jessye Norman

Sweet little Jesus Boy

They made You be born in a manger

Sweet little Holy child

Didn't know who You was.

Didn't know You'd come to save us Lord

To take our sins away.

Our eyes was blind;

We couldn't see

We didn't know who You was.

Long time ago You was born

Born in a manger low,

Sweet little Jesus Boy.

The world treat You mean Lord,

Treat me mean too.

But that's how things is down here,

we didn't know t'was You.

You done showed us how,

we is trying.

Master, You done showed us how,

even when you's dying.

Just seem like we can't do right,

look how we treated You.

But please, Sir, forgive us Lord;

We didn't know 'twas You.

Sweet little Jesus Boy

Born long time ago,

Sweet little Holy child

And we didn't know who You was.

Robert MacGimsey wrote this carol after walking past crowded speak-easies in New York City on Christmas Eve, 1932. Intended as an art song, it became one of many quasi-spirituals.

MacGimsey explained to Robin White in 1966, "This is not so much a song as just a meaning. You have to imagine an aging Negro standing off in the middle of a field just giving his heart to Jesus in the stillness."

"He was in the world, and the world was made by Him, and the world knew Him not.

He came unto His own, and His own received Him not."

John 1:10-11

December 10

"Madonna of the Rose Garden"
by Stefan Lochner, about 1450


King Jesus Hath a Garden
performed by the choir of Clare College, Cambridge

King Jesus hath a garden, filled with divers flow'rs
where I go culling posies gay, all times and hours.

There naught is heard but Paradise bird,

harp, dulcimer, lute, with cymbal,

trump and tymbal, and the tender soothing flute.

The Lily white in blossom there, is Chastity:

the Violet, with sweet perfume, Humility.

The Crown Imperial bloometh too in yonder place,

'tis charity, of stock divine, the flow'r of grace.

Yet, 'mid the brave, the bravest prize of all may claim
The Star of Bethlem-Jesus-bless'd be his Name!

Ah! Jesu Lord, my heal and weal, my bliss complete,

make thou my heart thy garden plot, fair, trim and neat.

That I may hear this musick clear,

harp, dulcimer, lute, with cymbal,

trump and tymbal, and the tender soothing flute.

This is a traditional Dutch carol, entitled "Heer Jesus heeft een Hofken"
from Geestlijcke Harmonie, written in 1633
Translated into English by George Ratcliffe Woodward (1848-1934)

Okay, NOW I get it...

Why didn't they just explain it like this in economics class???

The view from here...

Gratuitous photo of some of the spectacularly gorgeous Noro scarves that I've been knitting obsessively. Yes, I'm bragging. But knitting with this yarn is so satisfyingly addictive, who cares???!

The lovely and talented Sarah, from "Slouching Past Forty" has challenged us to a meme... And to give you a little break from all the Christmas music, I though I'd give it a try. The fact that I'm stuck at home with small children while copious amounts of snow and sleet dump down outside has NOTHING to do with this.

Ha ha.

Ladies and Gentlemen, I give you The Goddess' Desk:

Cleaned up version, of course. Trust me when I tell you that it will NOT look like this for long.

This is where I do most of my blogging, from a little alcove tucked in a corner of my kitchen. It's what we call the "command centre". I love the fact that I can pull down the roll-top, and hide my usually disastrous desk-top from view. However, almost all of my music collection has been stored on this computer, which means that the mess is usually fully exposed so that I can use the speakers and sub-woofer. Someday I'll get organized and hook the works into our stereo system...

The second part of the meme is to take a photo of the view from the place that I blog... All the things I can see from my chair. Since the desk is actually a part of the cabinetry, I will swivel my chair around for you:

GAAAAAAA.


Where's Mr Clean when you need him???

Right.

I confess. The command centre is not the only place where I blog... We shall now endeavor to block the mess out of our minds for a moment (after three children, I have nearly perfected this avoidance technique, for reasons of sanity-preservation). We will now go in search of my laptop:

Aaaaahh. Much better.

The view from here?

Let it snow.

December 9

Nativity Windows at Trinity Church, Boston

designed by Edward Burne-Jones, manufactured by William Morris

O Little One Sweet

harmonized by J. S. Bach

performed by The Cambridge Singers

O little one sweet,

O little one mild,

Thy Father's purpose thou hast fulfilled;

Thou cam'st from heav'n to mortal ken,

Equal to be with us poor men,

O little one sweet,

O little one mild.

O little one sweet,

O little one mild,

With joy thou hast the whole world filled;

Thou camest here from heav'n's domain,

To bring men comfort in their pain,

O little one sweet,

O little one mild.

O little one sweet,

O little one mild,

Help us to do as thou hast willed.

Lo, all we have belongs to thee!

Ah, keep us in our fealty!

O little one sweet,

O little one mild.

Written by Samuel Scheidt (1650), English translation by Percy Dearmer

December 8

"The Twelve Days of Christmas"

sung by Dame Kiri te Kanawa

Confession?

I have always HATED this song.

It's redundant, redundant, redundant. To make matters even worse, it's one of the most frequently recorded carols, and seriously overplayed.

Listening to this song in all of its nauseating varieties, in every major shopping centre from Wal Mart to Holt Renfrew, makes me feel as though my brain is going to rupture and leak out of my ears.

So imagine my shock and surprise when I discovered this particular recording, featuring the sublime New Zealand opera star, Dame Kiri te Kanawa.

This recording? Takes my breath away.

Dame Kiri is clearly in her element, and her soaring, lilting voice is full of all of the good humour required to make this song successfully engaging for the listener. Even more brilliantly, each verse has its own little musical theme which is carried along through each successive verse, and culminates into a wonderfully inspiring finale.

"The Twelve Days of Christmas" originated as a children's rhyme that was published in a book called "Mirth without Mischief " in about 1780. It was used as a memory and forfeit game, wherein each player took it in turns to say the rhyme, and more lines were added with every round. It is also rumoured to have been written as a "catechism song" to help young Catholics learn their faith. However, this would have been at a time when practicing Catholicism was discouraged in England, and there is apparently no substantive primary evidence that supports this claim.

The date of the song's first performance is not known, though it was used in European and Scandinavian traditions as early as the sixteenth century. Frederic Austin wrote an arrangement in the early twentieth century, which can be found in The New Oxford Book of Carols. He added his own melody from the verse "Five gold(en) rings" onwards, which is why the latter part of the song sounds quite different from the beginning.

The Twelve Days of Christmas, and the evenings of those twelve days ("Twelve-tide"), are the festive days beginning the evening of Christmas Day, through the morning of Epiphany (January 6). This period of time is also known as "Christmastide".

December 7

"Happy Christmas", by Viggo Johansen

The Candlelight Carol
music by John Rutter, performed by The Cambridge Singers

How do you capture the wind on the water?
How do you count all the stars in the sky?
How can you measure the love of a mother,
Or how can your write down a baby's first cry?
Candlelight, angel light, firelight and star glow
Shine on his cradle till breaking of dawn,
Gloria, gloria in excelsis Deo!
Angels are singing; the Christ Child is born.

Shepherds and wise men will kneel and adore him,
Seraphim round him their vigil will keep;
Nations proclaim him their Lord and their Savior,
But Mary will hold him and sing him to sleep.
Candlelight, angel light, firelight and star glow,
Shine on his cradle till breaking of dawn,
Gloria, gloria in excelsis Deo!
Angels are singing; the Christ Child is born.

Find Him at Bethlehem laid in a manger:
Christ our Redeemer asleep in the hay.
Godhead incarnate and hope for salvation:
A child with his mother that first Christmas Day.
Candlelight, angel light, firelight and star glow,
Shine on his cradle till breaking of dawn,
Gloria, gloria in excelsis Deo!
Angels are singing; the Christ Child is born!

December 6

Song for a Winter's Night

sung by one of Canada's finest:

Gordon Lightfoot

It's a chilly one out there today, with more snow in the forecast. So what better fare to serve for dinner than a hearty, wholesome one-dish meal, entitled "Casserole for a Cold Night"? This heavenly concoction is one of my girlies' favourites, and freezes like a dream... Double the recipe, and prepare an extra to pull out for supper over the Christmas holidays!

Casserole for a Cold Night

from "The Best of Bridge" cookbook series

1 lb extra lean ground beef

One 7 1/2 oz can of tomato sauce

1 garlic clove, minced (I use a garlic press, instead)

Salt and pepper to taste

2 tsp white sugar

One 14 oz can of tomatoes (I like the ones with Italian seasoning)

3 c broad egg noodles, cooked and drained

4 oz light cream cheese, cut in cubes

1 c sour cream

6 green onions, chopped finely

1 1/2 c grated old cheddar cheese

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees.

In a large, deep skillet, brown the beef, and drain off all fat. Add the tomato sauce, garlic, salt, pepper, sugar and tomatoes. Cover the pan, and let the mixture simmer over low heat for about 45 minutes.

Cook and drain the noodles, then while they are still hot, combine them with the cubed cream cheese (give it a gentle stir, to help the cheese melt a bit). Add the sour cream and green onions.

In a greased, 3-quart baking dish, layer the meat sauce, noodle mixture and cheddar cheese alternately. Top with extra grated cheddar. Bake, uncovered, for 30 minutes.

Serve with a nice, crisp green salad, and a beautiful bottle of red wine...

Enjoy. And keep warm, everybody!

Bought today...

What the heck.

December 5

"Cool Yule"

sung by Louis Armstrong (who else??!)

December 4

A Maiden Most Gentle

trad. French, arranged by Andrew Carter

sung by The Choir of King's College, Cambridge

A maiden most gentle and tender we sing,

Of Mary the mother of Jesus our King.

Ave Maria

How bless’d is the birth of her heavenly child,

Who came to redeem us in Mary so mild.

Ave Maria

The archangel Gabriel foretold by his call,

The Lord of creation and Saviour of all.

Ave Maria

Three kings came to worship with gifts rich and rare,

And marvelled in awe at the babe in her care.

Ave Maria

Rejoice and be glad at this Christmas we pray,

Sing praise to the Saviour sing end-less.

Ave Maria

Well, THAT explains a lot...

My lovely American readers?

Please talk amongst yourselves for a moment.

And Canada? Be frightened.

I sure am.

December 3

"Angel Playing Flageolet" by Edward Byrne-Jones, 1878

In Dulci Jubilo

sung by The Choir of King's College Chapel, Cambridge

The title of this beautiful carol is translated as "In Sweetest Rejoicing", but is commonly known in English as "Good Christian Men, Rejoice". It is a German/Latin macaronic carol that dates back to the fourteenth century. "Nun singet und seid froh" is said to have been written by the German mystic Heinrich Seuse in 1328. According to the folklore surrounding the carol, Seuse heard angel voices singing the words, and he joined them in a dance of worship.

This particular translation was written in 1837 by Robert Lucas de Pearsall, and in it he retains the original Latin, while switching the German lines to English:

In dulci jubilo

Let us our homage shew:

Our heart's joy reclineth

In praesepio;

And like a bright star shineth

Matris in gremio,

Alpha es et O!

O Jesu parvule,

I yearn for thee alway!

Hear me, I beseech Thee,

O puer optime;

My praying let it reach Thee,

O princeps gloriae.

Trahe me post te.

O patris caritas!

O Nati lenitas!

Deeply were we stained.

Per nostra crimina:

But Thou for us hast gained

Coelorum gaudia,

Qualis gloria!

Ubi sunt gaudia,

If that they be not there?

There are Angels singing

Nova cantica;

And there the bells are ringing

In Regis curia.

O that we were there!

There are Angels singing

And there the bells are ringing

In Regis curia.

O that we were there!

O that we were there!

December 2

"Snow"

from the movie "White Christmas"

sung by Bing Crosby, Rosemary Clooney,

Vera Ellen (voiced-over by Trudy Stevens) and Danny Kaye

Recently, the girlies and I have spent several lovely, quiet afternoons cutting the most beautiful paper snowflakes, which we are using to decorate our main-floor windows. Mother Nature seems to be taking the hint, and I spent a fair bit of time this afternoon shovelling out our drive, and walkways to the front and back doors... I'm all for a White Christmas, but my enthusiasm (and my lower back) will no doubt give out, come January 2nd... If I'm really good, maybe Santa will bring me a shiny red Toro snowblower. (Sadly, folks, this is what it is to be a Canadian... Some gals yearn for diamonds and lingerie. I'd settle for a snowblower and a pair of silk long johns.)

If you and yours would like to try making paper snowflakes, here is a website where you can down-load the most beautiful, lacy patterns:

http://www.papersnowflakes.com/patterns.htm

Enjoy!

Are you listening, Mr Paulson???!

December 1

"I Wish You Christmas"

by John Rutter

performed by The Cambridge Singers and the Farnham Youth Choir

Happiness is... December.

I'm so glad you've dropped by to listen to the first day of my annual "Musical Advent Calendar". If you are new to "I Can Fly, Just Not Up", then you will want to bookmark this site for the next month or so... Every day, I will be posting a new piece of Christmas music for your listening enjoyment. The player is up over there on the right of your screen-- just click on the little arrow button. Each selection will be available for you to hear for twenty-four hours, as many times as you'd care to listen.

The American author Bess Streeter Aldrich wrote, "Christmas Eve was a night of song that wrapped itself about you like a shawl. But it warmed more than your body. It warmed your heart... filled it, too, with a melody that would last forever."

That's what music-- and Christmas-- is all about: that incredible feeling of the lifting of the spirit. The cares and worries of the daily grind falling away, even if just for a few moments.

I hope that your daily visits here will help you to feel just that.

"I wish you music, I wish you song,

With voices echoing joyous and strong,

I wish you church bells ringing true and clear,

I wish you Christmas,

A Merry Christmas,

A Merry Christmas to remember all the year!"

Sae let the Lord be thankit.

Thanksgiving.

I remember my little Scottish grandmother not only on Thanksgiving (yes, both the Canadian and American Thanksgivings!), but on any holiday on which serving a "major meal" is involved.

My grandmother was a good, plain cook. And by that I mean that she cooked an abundance of family fare, and she did it with excellence. She could feed the entire brood of us-- and there are many, in our clan of "oatmeal savages". We would all eat hearty, in abundance, and push back from her table feeling satisfied, warmed-through, and most of all, loved.

When she was well into her eighties, she continued to cook turkey dinners whenever a few family members could be gathered together, even when her diminutive size and aching back made it difficult for her to hoist "The Bird" in and out of the oven. Indeed, on my last visit to her in her own home, she staunchly refused to allow me to assist her in any way with the meal. And, because she was Grandma-with-a-capital-G, I obeyed. I stood back, even as I saw her clearly struggling with that enormous, black roasting pan. And in watching her, I came to realize that the ritual was just as important to her as the people who gathered together to eat.

As we settled around her table, set with wedding china and the "Coronation" pattern silverware I can still feel in the palms of my hands... we would all bow our heads, and she would softly begin to recite the Selkirk Grace... her Grace, in the lilting brogue of her father's:

"Some hae meat and canna eat,

And some wad eat that want it;

But we hae meat, and we can eat,

Sae let the Lord be thankit."

The family would not stir, much less lift a fork, until Grandma had looked up. She would smile at us, and inquire:

"Who's like us?"

To which we would respond with a resounding:

"Damned few!!!!"

And then, we would enthusiastically tuck in, and feast till our skins felt tight.

Family dinners are not the same without her, but her memory lives on in her children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren. It is my own mother who recites the Grace, now, in a very different dining room, in a different part of the world. At this past Thanksgiving, she quietly asked me if I had learned the verse by heart, so that one day I would be able to "serve the family", as the eldest female member of my generation.

I have. And I will. I know in my heart the importance of family... of "passing down" the traditions, the memories, and most importantly, the love.

I am so thankful for all of it.

Wishing you all health, happiness, and love in abundance

on this day, and every day.

xo CGF

One month 'till Christmas...

Have you untangled your *$#@!! lights yet???

At Knit's End...

"I recognize that knitting can improve my mood in trying circumstances."

— Stephanie Pearl-McPhee, a.k.a. "The Yarn Harlot",

from her marvellous book

At Knit's End: Meditations for Women Who Knit Too Much

This past week, I've been making a concerted effort to "get me some happy", in advance of the onslaught of the Christmas holidays. For, as it turns out, it is impossible to "make merry" for those around you if you're not actually feeling merry, yourself.

I'm trying, people. In the face of all. this. mess. I'm really trying.

A good friend recently asked me whether I have been able to get back to doing any of the things that I have really enjoyed in the past. You know, for fun.

And it occurred to me, that "fun" is something I haven't felt capable of for a very, very long time now. The very idea of "enjoying myself" in the face of disaster just didn't seem right-- the guilt took any possible feelings of pleasure away.

How sad is that?

Too sad. Even for me.

There is no way out of all this but through, after all.

And if I have to keep pressing through, I might as well knit something while I'm at it.

I grabbed my friend by the arm on Saturday afternoon, and gave it a gentle twist... And the next thing we knew, we had swept ourselves over to our local knitting mecca, where we spent a surprisingly happy and relaxing few hours browsing through the stock, which is artfully arranged in floor-to-ceiling wall units that are always full to bursting. The owners know exactly what sort of stuff to put where-- what combinations of jewel-like colours will "sing" together, and which incredible textures will entice you to reach out your hand and stroke them... This is not just a yarn shop, but an other-worldly experience that awakens the senses, and entices you to imagine exactly what sort of marvellous creation each skein is crying out to become...

In spite of being on a budget, I confess. I came out laden with bags full of the most exquisite yarns, inspirational patterns, and beautiful bamboo needles that are easier on my hands and make a soft "swish" sound, rather than an annoying metallic "click" when I use them...

Yes, I had fun. Fun! And it felt great.

Almost as great as it has felt to start these projects:

Socks! I have always had a sock project on the go... and usually one on-the-needles and stuffed into my ridiculously large handbag, to whip out and fill time whenever I find a couple of minutes on my hands. The pair I am currently working on was actually begun in August, when all hell was beginning to break loose around here... We have dubbed them my "stress socks", and to be truthful, I'll probably have to throw them on a bonfire and get rid of them, once they're all done! No matter HOW gorgeous they may be...


A warm little sweater for Wee Three. She is my "sweater girl", and always cuddles up enthusiastically in whatever I make for her, without protest. The "Cabin Fever" pattern company has some spectacular designs that are available online from their website, and I cannot recommend them highly enough. Their "top-down" patterns are knit on the round in one piece, with nary a seam to stitch up when you're done! Miraculous. Easy. And gorgeous. What more could you want? Except perhaps the divinely soft green flecked yarn I bought to make it out of... I can't wait to see it on my littlest girlie, her brown eyes shining... She is already hounding me to "FINISH IT!!"

And last, but not least... The Scarf.

Anyone who is a true knitting devotee knows of The Yarn Harlot, a.k.a. Stephanie Pearl-McPhee, Canadian needlewoman extraordinaire. Well, recently she's been rhapsodizing on her blog about a certain scarf she simply cannot seem to put down, and after seeing pictures, I was hooked:

This is some of the most beautiful yarn I have ever had the pleasure of working with-- Noro Silk Garden; 45 silk /45 kid mohair/ 10 lambswool, and the colour that evolves as you work with it is simply spell-bindingly beautiful. The pattern is so simple, yet the results are spectacular. Like Stephanie, I simply cannot seem to put this project down, and if this keeps up, some lucky people are going to receive some very special hand-made Christmas presents this year... Or, maybe I'll feel so greedy and possessive of these divine, six-foot long creations, I'll just hoard them all for myself... It will be worth venturing out into the Great White North, simply for the pleasure of showing them off!

Yessirree.

I may be more than a little nutty these days... but still.

"Knit's End" has never looked so good.

A Joyful Noise

"St Cecilia"

by John Melhuish Strudwick

Today is the feastday of Saint Cecilia, who is the patron saint of musicians, and more specifically (and dear to my heart), church music. She is often represented in art with an organ, or holding organ-pipes in her hand.

And so, in her honour, I post one of my favourite pieces of music, played on the magnificent pipe organ at King's College Chapel, Cambridge, England. Turn up the volume, people, and enjoy!

The Toccata on Placare Christe Servulis Op. 38 No 14,

by Marcel Dupré, and played by Philip Ledger

"Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all the earth:

make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise."

-Psalm 98

My Daughter, The Athlete.

Upon discovering Child Number One slouching lugubriously in her chair at the lunch table, wearing a foul expression:

Mother: What's up, Buttercup? Why the long face?

Child Number One: (mournfully) We have GYM CLASS this afternoon...

Mother: So?

Child Number One: (clearly exasperated) That's FIFTY MINUTES of my life I'll NEVER get back...

If she weren't so damn good at math, I'd swear I've cloned myself...

The Garden in Winter

Blow, blow, thou Winter Wind

Blow, blow, thou winter wind,

Thou art not so unkind

As man's ingratitude;

Thy tooth is not so keen,

Because thou art not seen,

Although thy breath be rude.

Heigh-ho! sing, heigh-ho! unto the green holly:

Most friendship if feigning, most loving mere folly:

Then heigh-ho, the holly!

This life is most jolly.

Freeze, freeze thou bitter sky,

That does not bite so nigh

As benefits forgot:

Though thou the waters warp,

Thy sting is not so sharp

As a friend remember'd not.

Heigh-ho! sing, heigh-ho! unto the green holly:

Most freindship if feigning, most loving mere folly:

Then heigh-ho, the holly!

This life is most jolly.

--William Shakespeare

Sure on this Shining Night...

It's snowing.

A New Mantra.

Things have been a little too "heavy" around here, for way too long, folks.

So, I've made a conscious choice to do just this.

To give you a brief update on what's been happening around here in the "positive" department lately...

-I've spent the past month undertaking the Herculean task of applying for graduate school at five different universities. To date, all but one are written and submitted. After nearly twenty years, going back to "academic" writing has been more than a slightly daunting experience. But let me tell you, after hacking through all those pages and pages of essay questions, the way I figure it, if I manage to get accepted, the rest of the degree should be a breeze by comparison.

-I am spending most mornings volunteering in my children's public school, and have begun teaching an informal literacy program in the kindergarten classroom every Friday morning. I. Am. Loving. It. And so, have pitched two 10-week programs to our local library. Two branches have approved my curriculum so far, and it looks as though I'll be running programs on Saturday mornings, beginning in the spring and continuing through till the end of the summer.

-I have officially agreed to relinquish the title of Almighty Christmas Queen this year. For the first time in a long time, we will be "on the road" this holiday season, and will spend it in my childhood home with my family. It's going to be cramped, it's going to be more than slightly crazed... but it will be good to pass on the responsibility of Making the Holidays to someone else. And, let's face it, no matter how hard I try, no one does Christmas better than my mother.

-That said... even though Christmas seems to have arrived at a "bad time" (in my wee corner of the world, that is), I'm going to do my very best to rise to the occasion and celebrate with all of you again this year. Beginning December 1, I will again be posting a "Musical Advent Calendar" for your daily listening enjoyment. I have already started perusing my collection of Christmas carols, and plan to bring you many beautiful new selections, as well as a few of the best-received ones from last year.

Stay tuned, my friends...

Nooooooooooooo...

Need I say more?

In Remembrance.

The Floo'ers o' the Forest

I've heard the lilting, at the yowe-milking,
Lassies a-lilting before dawn o' day;
But now they are moaning on ilka green loaning;
"The Flowers of the Forest are a' wede away".

Dool and wae for the order sent oor lads tae the Border!
The English for ance, by guile wan the day,
The Flooers o' the Forest, that fought aye the foremost,
The pride o' oor land lie cauld in the clay.

I've heard the lilting, at the yowe-milking,
Lassies a-lilting before dawn o' day;
But now they are moaning on ilka green loaning;
"The Flowers of the Forest are a' wede away".

Although the original words are unknown, this melody was recorded in c. 1615-25 in the John Skene of Halyards Manuscript as "Flowres of the Forrest", though it may have been composed earlier. Several versions of lyrics have been added to the tune, but these are the words of Jean Elliot, who wrote them in 1756. It is the official lament of the Canadian Forces, played to honour fallen soldiers.

The Towing Path

Tow Path at Argenteuil, Winter c.1875

by Claude Monet

"The Towing Path"
by John Ireland, and performed by John Lenehan

"If music be the food of love, play on," the Great Poet wrote.

And so, in my family, we do.

Music, to us, is not only the food of love, music IS love. Music is an embodiment of love, between the person who plays, and the people who listen.

A few short weeks ago, when things seemed very, very gloomy for me, indeed, I packed up my little family in full-on "emergency mode", and headed home to my parent's house in Stratford. For there is nowhere on earth that carries the feeling of such calming reassurance for me, as the place where I grew up.

After a long drive, we arrived in the dark, with two out of three little girlies fast asleep in the back seat of the car. My mother gently led the two eldest upstairs, while I carried the comatose form of Wee Three. After changing them into their pyjamas, we tucked them into their beds-- the youngest ones curled up together, side-by-side, like two little kittens in a basket.

Downstairs once more, I poured my heart out to my parents, who sat at the kitchen table and listened. Once I had exhausted myself of frustrated monologue, my mother quietly got up and walked into the living room, where her beautiful baby grand piano stands in front of a picture window.

She sat down to play. She played this piece: a piece I hadn't heard since the very early days of my childhood. As her fingers gently brushed the keys, the melody filled the rooms of our house, and I felt some of the tension I had been carrying slowly begin to ebb away.

And I realized that she played because she and my father have no words for me at this difficult time. I have my own decisions to make, my own path that must be followed. But instead of sitting in silence, or trying to fill up the void with "small talk", playing this beautiful, soothing music was my mother's way of conveying how much she and my father will always love and support me.

"If music be the food of love, play on. Give me an excess of it..."

--William Shakespeare's "Twelfth Night"

Congratulations, America.

It's About Time.

"God bless us, every one!"

Thanksgiving, 2008

And yet... we must remember that we still have so very, very much to be thankful for.

Manners Maketh...

We were all sitting 'round the luncheon table in Stratford today, my mother having concocted a feast of pancakes with maple syrup and Canadian bacon, fresh from the local farmer's market.

I had spent the nearly three-hour car ride (through rush-hour traffic on Friday afternoon) whipping the girlies into shape... All three had been warned to be on their very best-est behavior, for the benefit of my overly-generous and long-suffering parents, who are hosting us for the weekend.

Having crammed themselves with as many pancakes as was "safe", their skins feeling sufficiently tight, Child Number Two and Wee Three were slightly taken aback when in response to their request to be excused from the table, my mother placed a banana in front of each of them for dessert:

Wee Three: (glowering blackly at the fruit) YUCK.

Child Number Two: (horrified by her little sister's lack of table manners) No, sweetie... You're supposed to say, "Yuck, PLEASE".

I must be doing something right with these kids... I'm just not exactly sure what...

Music for Today.

Hallelujah.